harry_ko's Xanga

[人生有幾多個十年]

Tue, 15 Dec 2009 14:29:40 GMT

從前的我, 不會為人隨意作出任何既promises, 我絕不容易為人付出自己. 但係呢一年, 一個promise, 我將自己加上一個加鎖. 我賭上了自己認為係寶貴既安穩. 我換返黎既不是什麼好果, 反而係一個又一個既巴痕. 縱使我沒有想過可以得到些什麼, 但我真係估唔到我因為咁而失去左好多. 自己唔開心左好多次, 失望過, 自責過, 痛哭過. 路見不平; 幫人擋彈以為最少都可以救人出苦海, 換來的反而係對自己有增無減既傷痕. 連自己都跌埋落個海度. 也許我真係太多事, 我應該自私一點, 從今之後即使見到相似事件再發生, 都唔好多事去幫, 好人未必有好報ga. Hari 你咁多事做咩 ~~ 咪有人地死lor. 有人真係死左唔關你事ga.

這樣是對的嗎?? 有好多人都跟我講過唔好再為朋友既事而煩憂. 佢地自己係都要去死, 唔通你要出面去阻止咩. 我係佢邊個?? 我自問有能力去阻止, 但係結果會係好的嗎?? 我自身都已經死過一次, 我真係唔想再死多次. 死, 真係好辛苦. 外人不會明白你為佢做既一切, 當時人都可能反而會去怪責你. 呢個教訓之中, 我學到不應對任何人有任何既期望　”Expectation".

人生有幾多個十年, 最緊要係活得痛快 - 做任何野都要諗埋個後果. 我也許要係呢兩句之中找一個平衡點.

神叫我地不用為明天的事憂慮, 因為明天自有明天的憂慮. 只要係行得正, 企得正既, 什麼事都成.

呢次我救唔救人, 我真係諗左好耐. 因為有人同我講過而家發生緊既野好似同之前個單如出一徹. 叫我唔好involve 落去. 我自己從個次事件發生後, 我學識左好多. 不過我良心叫我唔可以真係見死不救. 我應該點做呢??

我今日睇完某人既一篇野, 我知道神你要我去保住個個人. 因為我有呢方面既恩賜. 之前我中哂彈既個件事, 可能就係神比我一個學習既機會. 上一次我處理得唔夠好, 不過相信你唔會就咁有我死既, 你會幫我善後. 善後既時候, 就係比我學習等待既時機. 我有信心, 憑住你既力量得勝. 因為我親身感受到禱告的力量, 仲有一班好好既弟兄姊妹係我既身邊.

我相信一切都係神你既掌管之中, 過程可能唔係外人睇到, 外面睇可能真係好醜陋, 不過晨曦之前個天都會係最黑暗既. 最黑暗既日子已經過去, 黎緊既係光明與光榮既時代. 光榮之家.

我而家可以為你作出一個promise, 係我能力之內既 "我會保護你" 唔會比你死. 呢個promise, 係無限期既有效. 我promise 得你既野, 我一定會做到. (對於之前我promise 過既另一個你, 都係同樣有效)

ps. 講就容易, 做既未必真係做得來, 不過我會努力!!

[Cooking Mama]

Tue, 03 Nov 2009 13:20:31 GMT

Eric 返左香港, 我暫時要自己煮野食.... 咩都要自己煮.... 仲要比iris 串: 一個人係冷清D ga la... [唔知講咩好] 等我執個人返黎陪我先!! wakaka

自己煮生菜炒chicken, 最後變左水浸生菜chicken..... D 飯都好似唔係好熟...... Oh no... 唔可以比Iris 叻過我!!!!

我問Iris: 其實呢我唔識煮野, 係唔係好失敗.... Iris 話: 咁我係女生都唔識煮.... 係唔係仲失敗.....

小Mi 剪左毛, 毛色唔同左, 不過一樣係咁肥...

我都想返HK, 快D搵到工啦~~ 我要$$ 呀!!

Mixx my Brother~~!

[Short-Long]

Wed, 14 Oct 2009 16:20:22 GMT

Dear God, i know your love goes to whoever believe in you.

Shouldnt be short sighted, should aim for a long-term instead.

Plz plan a way for me

Rely on You

[God Loves]

Fri, 09 Oct 2009 09:18:46 GMT

Learn from GIll couple days ago: God works in ways we cannot imagine, keep believing, keep persevering, keep praying.

After i knew the issue from him, i feel really sorry to him. There are nothing that i can do for him, but i will keep praying for him. However, i really thx god that provide us this opportunity for us to develop our bondings and trust. No matter how it flows, you did it becoz u luv us.

I wish that he would stop being childish & grow up of coz, sometimes i wont work on juz spoon feedin, people need to grow up in pain. I pray that he not juz share his happiness with me, but also sadness and angryness, as i can be a bro to support him n make him feel like he's not alone.

Dear God, i hand all over to u, plz rescue whoever in hell, n lead them see the strength of ur light.

[I know u luv me]

Tue, 06 Oct 2009 00:29:59 GMT

要活得比他們快樂.

i know u luv me.

[Sweet Lemon]

Fri, 18 Sep 2009 16:08:05 GMT

之前比人串過甜的lemon, 比人拒絕, 真係好難唔係唔sour

[Juz Believe]

Tue, 08 Sep 2009 10:18:35 GMT

自己的推測也只不過是推測. 永遠也不會有一個100%的肯定. 唯有你才有能力去改變一切.

Juz Believe

不要去擔心那麼多. Juz believe

[願]

Thu, 03 Sep 2009 12:58:49 GMT

想得太多, 如果他說的是真的, 我對個個人真係好失望.

這不是第一次發生的了, 我以為人係會變的, 但係個個人竟然一點進步都無, 見人講人話, 見鬼講鬼話. 我雖然有時都係咁, 但係個個係之前同佢出生入死的好兄弟黎ga. 佢咁做, 為的係咩呢?!

不過算啦, 我又唔係可以做D咩. 我既能力好有限. 如果我真係咁有正義感, 就唔係今日的Hari啦.

[Another Version]

Mon, 31 Aug 2009 08:00:00 GMT

生活上有好多野煩, 煩煩煩煩煩.

好濛呢, 好大霧, 咩都睇唔到. 而家搵緊個燈塔係邊~~

[Simple Plan]

Mon, 17 Aug 2009 03:32:58 GMT

I was so stressed these days deal to his issues. I considered him to be so important to me, i trust him so much, i have expectation on him. I am so worry that i will be disappointed on him, It's kinda contradicting. I said that i trust and believe on him, on the other hand i m worring abt him.

The reason i worry becoz i understand that he's so weak, the temptations and evils around him would affect his decision. He trusts me, he learns from me and he considered me as his brother, or even father (i dunn wanna believe, but all other did). At the current stage, i will have to back to reality, I m his older brother.

I dun want my brother to get hurt, as all they said, "you did ur best, there are nothing you can do now, It's his choice, he has to responsible for his choice as he's already an adult". And also scolded me for blaming them when they did something wrong, but i didnt blame him if he did something wrong. So wht's the difference?? Maybe i consider all of them to be my frds/bffs, but him to be a brother. I dun want to see my brother die.

On the other hand, they said "where's the old Hari, where's the Hari's spirit." As a player, Hari never lose. This time, i cannot say i lose, but he did as a blurden to me. He is a hurdle for me to win the game. I agree that he's being kidnapped and would be a hurdle to me to win the game. If i not treating him as my brother, i won already. I have thousands of methods that can play the game and win over for sure. This time, he is a main variable that blocked me to checkmate. I love him, so therefore i dun wanna sacrify him to fulfill my goals. And now, the snowball is still rolling n lost contolled. I lost all my rational thoughts, and everything become so emotional. This is the 1st time that Hari would have this feeling.

I still not yet lose, i still have chance to win. Although its very hard overcome this dead end situation, but the game is still on. I still have opportunity to win. I have to rely on you, your faith, and your glory. I have to trust him, and trust you. As B told me, "he prepared the best for you, and for him". He is the one who can change everything, as long as we believe in him.

Recall back to that monday, yea... we nearly did a wrong decision, lucky that you are with us. Although we still not met our goal, you clam our minds. Although we have a "fight" on monday nite, i felt proud abt him on Tue, becoz he fainlly woke up.

For Sat. they have a BIG chat with me, n they decided to help me out and rescue him from hell. They love me, and love him, so they help us. I was so worried that it will turn into a disaster after the plan implemented. I prayed and prayed, things did go pretty smooth. This is the second time he helped us out in this issue that i awared of. I know he did lots of things that helped us behind us, juz like i did something behind him to help him. He trusts me, therefore i have to trusts you.

The power of him never lose. I have to trust the power of him, i have to trust the works that you did for me!! I have to return, i need to be tough, and i have to be strong, because as C said, if i die, he die too, I live, he live. He learns from me, so i have to act as a role model for him to learn from. I cannot affect by him and become weak, but i have to stay strong for him to learn. This is my mission, and i want him to believe in your power as well!! I wont let myself to lose in the game, because i have you as my strong supporter and advisor. The old Hari has to return, The power of GOD will NEVER LOSE!!

harry_ko's Xanga

**[人生有幾多個十年]**

**[Cooking Mama]**

**[Short-Long]**

**[God Loves]**

**[I know u luv me]**

**[Sweet Lemon]**

**[Juz Believe]**

**[願]**

**[Another Version]**

**[Simple Plan]**